Fear

[Tom]

I've been wondering about this for some time and I reckon i just figured it out.
I've always drawn. I never paid attention in class because I was doodling in the margins. I even didn't pay attention at work and doodled on what ever was handy.
I've been living off the good will of the government for a little while now and even though I only worked 3 days a week at my last job I'm not sure if I could face going to work again.
I don't want to be rich, I'm not even sure I want to be famous (I'd like to be but I don't think it's the driving force).
What drives me is fear. Fear of the ordinary, day to day grind of worker day life. Fear of not being able to draw. I am hard working. But only at things I consider worth while. And seeing as I don't really like money I can't bite the bullet and get the old 9 to 5.
So that's it folks, fear! Fear is what drives me.

[bluetoaster]

Ooooh, now - I think you've touched on it Tom. That's pretty much me to a major degree.

While I work a day job now & draw every chance I get (with the romantic hope of leaving my day-job), I fear being 60 and being in this same position.

It's as though I've found 'it' (ie. publishing/drawing/writing) - but need to make something of 'it' in order to rid myself of the ball-&-chain of my day-job that provides me money for rent/food.

It's the 'fear' of not having money to live.

I've quite honestly said to my friends, that the only reason I buy a lotto ticket each week, is so i quit my job and have money for food & shelter ( a simple life ) and just do my books for the rest of my life. I don't want to buy houses or sports cars. I just want to work on my books full time as see where it takes me.

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[Harbenger]

My second biggest fear is that I'm not achieving my full potential in life with the skills I have, my biggest fear is that I will die with this same feeling.
Theres a car that drives around the streets where I live with a bumper stiker that says "Justify Your Existsence", now normally I think bumper stickers are the lamest thing ever invented, but this one really hits home.

I'm the sort of guy who would be happy with 2 milk crates and a plank of wood for a coffee table, so money isn't the issue, I guess I would like to make a difference in at least one persons life.

[JasonFranks]

I was just thinking about this...

I like to make stuff.

I have a day job I really enjoy and a reasonable wage (all subject to change at any time). I make stuff in my job, and I like that, but I like making stories more. I've always doen it and I always will... but what I really want is an audience.

I'm not a performer. I don't need or want to be in the limelight. I play guitar, but I do that at home in private; I care to be seen or heard doing it--but I do want people to read my stories. I have tons of stories in my head, more than I can write or produce by myself. If there's one thing I dislike about having a day job, it's the time it takes away from my writing.

So I guess what I want is to be some kind of storyteller. Doesn't have to be comics or prose (although those are my two favourite media to work in presently), but I just want to tell stories.

-- JF

[Tom]

I was wondering if anybody felt the same and it looks like I'm not alone.
We all seem to share a passion and are terrified that in one way or another we won't be able to do it.
Cheers guys, It heartens me to read your responses.

[Paul Bedford]

[Tom]

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